Saturday, March 30, 2019

How the World was Made 1




Over the next few months I've decided to post the prose-poems from the manuscript 

How the World was Made

Flight to Venus/Mark Flowers

Even though most of the poems have been published in print or in online journals, I simply can't get the whole thing published.

I now have five unpublished manuscripts that talk to me late at night, wondering when they’ll see the light of day (It might be interesting to go into an analysis of the labyrinthine world of publishing here, but I'll save that for another day).




I suppose it's time to start my own press. Why wait for someone else's nod of approval? It's a time-honored tradition in poetry. Although it requires some initial cash...




How the World was Made
was written between 2009 and 2016. The words and stories in the book absorbed those years - and the years beyond. Poetry is news that stays news.

Without further ado, here are the first three prose poems.


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Mining

I have been traveling into the earth since before my great-grandfather was born. It is something I do consciously, connecting back to the dead. I am not saying this from inside a dream. I have an alarm clock next to the bed.

I can hear the tunnels beneath the floor. Each tunnel has a different word that it repeats, has been repeating since before my great-grandfather went down into the earth. I follow each word down until it blends into another word. “Sell” dissolves into “Sin.” “Sin” dissolves into “Salute.”  There are men still cutting tunnels down there, so the permutations are endless. I am not saying this from inside a dream. I have a knife next to the bed.

I’ve seen my great-grandfather down there. I’ve seen yours. He has quick scavenging eyes, albino skin slick as a cave fish. His claws reach out, tear at the earth. His nails are sharp, long.  He doesn’t need a pick-axe or shovel; he doesn’t need a light. He has become a perfect digging machine. He lifts dirt to his mouth, chews, swallows. I am not saying this from inside a dream. I have a pair of gloves next to the bed. 

Our ancestors keep eating. I hear them chewing and swallowing. They do not know how to stop.  They will replace the earth. I am not saying this from inside a dream. I have a book of matches and a gallon of gas. I will follow the word “fire” down until it dissolves into “fish”.


(Previously published in Hanging Loose Magazine and in a 2River chapbook in the US; and previously published in Planet: The Welsh Internationalist in the UK)


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My Mother’s Body

When the war was over, she danced. Everyone danced, touched each other, bodies so close, but it was innocent, wrapped in victory. She wanted to dance this victory dance for the rest of her life; to be so close to so many, to be touched, but no one touching her in that way...

Her body is the keeper of all secrets; thinner and thinner, disappearing inside her clothes, trying to become wind. Leaves fly. Walnuts slam against the porch. Winter is almost here. Her body believes in national security, keeping the things that should not be said from being said, keeping the things that should not be felt from being felt, keeping the things that should not be remembered from being remembered.

Night after night, when I look in the mirror I see her drunk father stumble into the house, stare through her, leaving the front door open, snow blowing across the floorboards. I see her mother stare out the kitchen window, transparent, silent, and thin, so thin. Is this true? 

Encrypted messages pass back and forth between satellites that shoot across the night sky, never touching the ground. I cannot look away from my face, down at the rest of my body. I know parts of my body are disappearing, too, and I don’t know how to bring anything back.

Holes. Sacrifice. Everyone must do their part.


(Previously published in Hanging Loose Magazine in the US; and in Planet: The Welsh Internationalist in the UK)


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March in Denver

Clear sky. The sun is a furious bird. Coal trains move through the mountains to the west. So many brilliant cars pass the anti-war signs speared into grass. When a car honks in support, a friend screams “Park your car!” He has only a few seconds to explain all of history.

The governor is up in the mountains, fishing. He casts his line. Concentric circles ripple through a jet trail. The sun opens its beak, a tongue of flame flickers. We march down Market Street. A couple of elementary school kids raise their fists and shout “Fuck the War!” A few teens holding shopping bags stare at us, confused. One raises a middle finger. 

The sun flies from the mouth of a drunk vet: “I’ve been to war! What do you know about war?” I want to tell him the sun is a bird lover, a steel girder, a Hollywood movie starring the first atomic bomb; that it never stops burning eyes into the open face of water; that it never stops churning language back into blood for all of us to drink; that it eats time (that strange soft tissue); that only water throws it into relief. 

We shout in front of the Halliburton high-rise: “War profiteers!” It’s Saturday, so of course no one’s inside. The sun ignites the back of a trout up in the mountains. The governor reels the fish in, laughing. A protestor with the face of a clown smears red paint across Halliburton’s glass doors. Suddenly, everyone is smearing red paint across the glass. The lone security guard rushes off to call his superiors. We run, laughing. We have stopped nothing.


(Previously published in Serving House Journal)


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Wednesday, January 2, 2019

No One's at the Cash Register: Poem in American Journal of Poetry




A 10-part, 
semi-humorous 
poem of mine,
called

No One's at the Cash Register

is currently in the new issue 
of




The poem can be found

It is from a new manuscript
called:
Absence: Presence

The poems in the manuscript
were influenced by
Classical Chinese Poetry
(mostly of the T'ang Period):

Cold Mountain

Tu Fu, Li Po, Wang Wei, Chia Tao, Cold Mountain (Han Shan),
Po Chu-I, Tu Mu, Meng Hao-Jan…

Han Shan (right) and friend Shih-Te
This particular poem was written
in imitation of the poetry of 


Han Shan was a hermit reported to have lived in the mountains near the Kuo-ch'ing Temple in Southeast China. He sometimes worked in the temple kitchen and wrote his poems on rocks, trees and the walls of farmer's homes. Ever irreverent (in the true Ch'an or Zen spirit), he constantly poked fun at institutional spirituality and traditional cultural conventions. He took his poet-name from the place where he lived (Han Shan translates as Cold Mountain).


His poems were eventually collected after his disappearance (he is reportedly to have gone into a cave at Cold Cliff, after being hassled too many times by Temple officials, and pulled it shut behind him, disappearing forever).         


Han Shan's collection is known as The Cold Mountain Poems or Poems from Cold Mountain. There are many translations into English that I like (most notably the famous ones by Gary Snyder - found in his book Riprap & Cold Mountain Poems), but my favorite are the playful, exuberant ones by J.P. Seaton, published by Shambhala Publications. They have a goofy, trickster quality that I love.


Here's one:

XI

People ask about the Cold Mountain way:
plain roads don't get through to Cold Mountain.
Middle of summer, and the ice still hasn't melted.
Sunrise, and the mist would blind a hidden dragon.
So, how could a man like me get here?
My heart is not the same as yours, dear sir
If your heart were like mine,
You'd be here already.

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Cold Mountain is a state of mind, or,
more deeply,
a way of being in the world.

For my own poem, I imagined someone like Han Shan
standing at a cash register in a grocery store 
(an alternative food store, probably)
day after day, year after year.


I have a series of poems in the new manuscript that are written
in the persona of "No One."

Someone a bit like Han Shan...

Han Shan and Shih-Te

Here's a Seaton translation 
of another Cold Mountain poem:

III

If you're looking for a peaceful place,
Cold Mountain's always a refuge.
A little breeze, breath of the shaded pines,
And if you listen close, the music's even better.
Under the pines a graying man,
soft, soothingly, reading aloud from Lao Tzu.

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Well,
my poem takes place in the service industry,
a world of humiliation and pitiful wages
(40% of workers in the US are in the service industry)

and so my poem begins like this:

No One's at the Cash Register
1.

If you're looking for a
peaceful place, this is not it.
I work this register night
after night. "Clean up on
aisle six." Olive oil and glass
and some blood. Red drops.
Chrysanthemum petals. A
woman holds her finger
in a wad of paper towels.
"Did you find everything okay?"
Words here mean nothing. No
use for words on Cold Mountain.
So, why come down? The moon
asked me to pick up some
bananas for her. And cash. I
needed the cash.

2.

Middle of the summer
and the frozen vegetables
are still frozen; ice cream,
too. Tourists want a cold
drink, someone to humiliate…


You can read the rest at


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Other Notable Translations:


Red Pine's Collected Songs of Cold Mountain



and Burton Watson's Cold Mountain




Friday, December 21, 2018

Winter Solstice 2018: Hope, Courage, Mercy




At this time of the rolling year, I usually post a solstice poem - or something seasonal. I wrote the poem below a few days ago when the snow was still on the ground. We've had at least three significant snows this year, after years of "unseasonably" warm winters. Unfortunately, the unseasonable-ness has become the norm. 

The reason I bring this up is because I've been witness to and have been experiencing something that now pervades the culture, the world - what has been termed "eco-grief." That all-pervading anxiety and sorrow at the back of the mind, dwelling in the heart; the knowledge that things have gone too far, that we are now living (for those of us that are older) on a different planet from the one on which we were born. It is overwhelming - too big for the small human brain to take in - and it can lead to numbness, dissociation, and mental paralysis.   

During the winter solstice, when we begin the transformation from the darkest day towards spring and more light, I think of the word "hope." Hope in the dark. There is an optimistic strain in the American psyche that always holds out hope in the dark. Sometimes this is helpful. But I think hope is the wrong way of approaching our situation (mass extinction) now. The world has already changed and we must change with it. 

What I feel is required is courage. Courage to face the situation, look the terror in the face and acknowledge it for what it is. Courage to participate in trying to keep the world from total collapse. Courage to have compassion for those who are frozen by fear and deny that it is happening. 

I say all this with the knowledge that I'm not a particularly courageous person. My courageous moments have happened because I was in community with other people who shared the same energy: a communal spirit.  

In the poem there is a reference to a streetlight near where I live - it is always on. About a year ago I started calling it "Our Lady of Perpetual On-Ness." In my mind, it alternates between symbolizing an excessive and useless waste of energy and an eerie yet merciful, blueish-aqua light in the darkness. 

There is also a reference to "shadow people" that are seen by those who suffer from schizophrenia...the figures, for the most part, when drawn, usually look the same...



Winter Solstice: Mercy



What's been lost follows me up
            the mountain. A lone crow

somewhere on the trail ahead. His
            voice, all gravel and rags.

A slight ripple across the reflection
            of a piñon branch in a

sandstone pool. The same vibration
            that moves through

the hollows inside my chest (looking
            for a way out, finding

none). I long for sleep, the right
            dream. Human sleep and

juniper roots, twins in the same dark
            amniotic sac, knowing

the other is near, so close - What is
            this shape? Is it part

of me? Shadows form at twilight
            among bare trees, the same

shapes drawn by those who suffer
            from schizophrenia -  this,

they look like this: a head, shoulders,
            great-coat, dissolution at

the feet…a Pygmy Owl turns its head,
            scans the ground. Near home,

I see a man beneath the streetlight
            that never shuts off

(the one I call Our Lady of Perpetual
            On-Ness), arms spread,

looking up. Begging for mercy. When
            I'm close, he dissolves up into

the light, a weave of bare branches
            against the first few stars. 






 Find the beauty in the dark.

Where transformation resides.





Monday, December 3, 2018

Poem in Gingerbread House




I have a new poem
in the current issue of



A journal dedicated 
to publishing poetry & fiction 
with
a magical element.



The poem arose from the sensation - 
while hiking during the extreme part 
of the last drought -
that there were small, stone-like 
human-shaped spirits 
crouching beside the trail, 
watching...



Who were they?

What did they want?


The poem can be found